LOST AND FOUND
i lost myself in our love
i wonder if you did too
and you’re left
finding pieces of yourself
you forgot you once had
it feels good to be found again
WHO AM I?
sometimes i see parts of you
in me
fragments of the person you were
with me
GRIEVING GHOSTS
one must live with one’s mistakes
echos of lapses of judgment and reason
it brings me comfort to know
that we will always be connected through this
this solidarity of ghosts.
theses memories
and feelings
and thoughts
of what once was
an opaque figure walking beside us
with time, fading and trailing behind
we can always look back
and recall the frozen reflection
of who was once ours
who no longer exists
i grieve the person you were with me.
you are changing
and i thought i would be there
through it
it is simple
and inevitable
and painful.
CONDOLENCE
this agony isn't from lost love
it's from the way we destroyed us
the brutality in our murder
and the disillusionment
that we could rise our dead relationship
from its sorrowful grave
i'm so glad we stopped
dragging our rotten body around
may we rest in peace.
ANXIOUS ATTACHMENT
we put chains on each other
trying to keep us together forever
we had good intentions,i promise
loving and innocent
dependent and insecure
terrified of losing each other
so we held on for
too long
too hard
CUT OFF/FREE
thank you
thank you
thank you
for having the strength
neither of us could muster
for making the choice
we were too afraid to make
AMBIGUOUS
i am glad that it’s over
and
i wish we were meant to be
i don't know how to coexist with these feelings but oh the human nature is ambiguous
and here i, i, I am living with them
INDISPUTABLE
we were deeply in love
no one can take that away from us
nothing will ever make that untrue
we tried our best
no one can say we didn’t give it our all
nothing will make our effort less than everything
TANGIBLE SENSATION
love eclipsed the reality
of our dissonance
it will take time to fully wake up
from this daze
this illusion of hope
brought on by love
i am not left wanting more
of what we did have
DIVINE INTERVENTION
and despite it all
i am grateful i got to love you
and be loved by you
in this lifetime
a part of me
hopes we get the chance to meet
in every other lifetime
because you are beautiful
even if
we couldn't be